I can't believe its four years since we lost my mum. She would have been 71 today, so today is a time for reflection and time spent thinking of her, and how wonderful she was to us.
These are the hardest times when you don't have a faith to believe in, or a grave to go to, just to feel you can be near someone again. We never have been a religious family, but at times like these I wish more than ever that I had a faith, or a place to go to feel like I was with her again.
So I buy her flowers, and I spend the every minute of the day thinking of her, and the times we had together.
And how I so wish she was here.
Happy Birthday Mum.
We love you with all our hearts xxxxx
You're in my thoughts today.
clare x
Posted by: Clare Powell | July 15, 2009 at 03:52 PM
your mum will always be in your heart, your thoughts and fondest memories.
take care
felicity xx
Posted by: felicity | July 15, 2009 at 04:12 PM
Thinking of you, and you family.
MBBx
Posted by: Mummy Boo Bear | July 15, 2009 at 04:12 PM
I couldn't imagine grieving without my faith.It must be tough.
You look so much like your mum!
Posted by: Kristy | July 15, 2009 at 04:20 PM
Mothers never really die
I love this.
I have only slipped away into the next room
I am I and you are you
whatever we were to each other, that we still are. Call me by my old familiar name
Speak to me in the easy way which you always used. Put no difference in your tone. Laugh as we laughed, at the little jokes we enjoyed together. Let my name be ever the household word that it always was.
Thinking of you today.
Pauline/Isle of Man. xxxxx
Posted by: Pauline Wilkinson | July 15, 2009 at 04:37 PM
I shall be thinking of you today. I am not a from greatly religeous family either (we are C of E but we do not go to church or anything) but I think faith is whatever you choose to make it. If buying your Mum flowers and spending time thinking about her if what you choose to do, then I believe that that is your own kind of faith. x
Posted by: Hannah | July 15, 2009 at 04:46 PM
Sorry, forgot to give you 2 big hugs xx
Posted by: Pauline Wilkinson | July 15, 2009 at 04:47 PM
Thinking of you today Nicky. Lots of Love, Kathyx
Posted by: kathy | July 15, 2009 at 06:21 PM
Thinking of you today xxxx
Posted by: mandy | July 15, 2009 at 06:49 PM
Such a hard day to get through. Your Mum is in your heart, your life, your children. xx
Posted by: French Knots | July 15, 2009 at 07:47 PM
Oh Nicky,such a difficult day for you,but your mum will always be in your heart.Thinking of you and sending a big hug!
Rachel x
Posted by: Rachel | July 15, 2009 at 08:18 PM
I know exactly what you mean. My mum died 9 years ago . . . there's always something missing eh?
Love Helen
Posted by: Helen Charlton | July 16, 2009 at 08:05 AM
I read somewhere that the dead live on as long as we remember them ....... which I find a comfort.
Posted by: Anne Donald | July 16, 2009 at 08:58 AM
I don't think we ever get over the loss but she is still there in your heart, in you & in your children.
Hugs
Jayne
Posted by: Jayne | July 16, 2009 at 12:55 PM
Sorry for your loss. I lost my mom a couple of years ago and I still find myself reaching for the phone to tell her little things about my kids. A funny thing they've said or what size clothes they are in. It's not easy. My heart goes out to you....
Posted by: LuAnn Smith | July 16, 2009 at 01:51 PM
What a beautiful tribute to your mother! It's always hard going through days like this, but remember you mother is always with you. She is in your heart and in your memories.
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Posted by: Suzie Button | July 17, 2009 at 01:00 AM
Ah Nicky, tough day! sending you a virtual hug x thinking of you, love Sarah x
Posted by: Sarah - Jane down the lane | July 17, 2009 at 05:24 PM
All we need is Love,Love is all we need!
That,s we all need to remember....
Posted by: anni | July 18, 2009 at 09:49 PM
Not only do you lose your Mum, you lose your best friend too. I know just how you feel. Your Mum lives on in you, and your children. And for just how wonderful she was, she will never be forgotten. A big hug from me. x
Posted by: Louise | July 19, 2009 at 06:02 PM
I'm so sad that your sad, its so hard when that special someone is not there to chat to anymore....:>(
Thinking of you..x
Posted by: melmel | July 19, 2009 at 08:14 PM
You and I lost our Mum's within a couple of weeks of each other. Your sentiments are mine completley. I do have a grave to visit... except it is is Hull, England and I am in Israel. I too buy flowers (my Mum was a florist) and remember her that way.
I hope that the day wasn't too hard for you.
Posted by: Lisa | July 21, 2009 at 11:03 AM
I pray for you to find that sweet faith in Jesus, just call out His name and He will comfort you.
Posted by: Janegrace | July 21, 2009 at 03:41 PM
I have lost my Mom as well. It is a difficult road. I wanted you to know it is not too late to have a faith in God and his son Jesus. If you have access to the Holy Bible you can look up a verse in John chapter 3 verse 16. That is what the Christian faith is all about. If you only believe in God and what his son Jesus did for you, then you have faith. By spending time with him, reading in the Bible (which are his words to us)and prayer (talking to Him), you can develop a relationship with him and your faith will grow. God promises a "peace that passes all understanding" if you have a relationship with him. Feel free to write to me anytime. I would be happy to talk more if you are interested. Beverly
Posted by: Beverly | July 21, 2009 at 09:25 PM
A sad time, Nicky, but one full of wonderful memories, I'm sure. You are so like her to look at.
See you next weekend.
Sue xx
Posted by: Sue | July 26, 2009 at 08:58 AM